I have found myself over the past few years asking God “Why? Why? Why?”
Why did my marriage fail? Why did my children stop talking to me? Why have I missed out on my beautiful granddaughters first, second, third, and soon to be fourth birthday? Why have friends turned against me? Why is work such a struggle? Essentially, why is life so hard?
I know that I am not the only person who asks the “Why?” questions. I also know that I am not the only person who struggles at times with feelings of worthlessness. All I have to do is scroll through my Facebook feed to see lost and hurting people.
There was a time in my life when I thought I would not, could not, and did not want to make it; I was ready to give up. Sadly, many people do not make it; they give up on life. They either check out mentally or in extreme cases, they check out physically. By the grace of God, I survived!
My survival was not based upon receiving supernatural answers for all of my questions. NO, my survival was based upon diving into the Word of God and by surrounding myself with strong Christians.
Matthew 6:33 “Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you”.
I started seeking GOD first and began to seek the answers to MY questions less. I started thanking GOD for taking care of all of my wants and needs and stopped complaining about how little I had. I started to rejoice that God is still on the Throne and He is making a way when there seems to be no way! God knows what I need and when I need it; I just need to trust Him!
Philippians 4:4-9 “Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
As I started seeking, thanking, and praising God, I noticed a shift in my thinking. I no longer thought about how much I missed my granddaughter and everything I was missing out on in her life; I started thinking about all of the fun we are going to have together in the future. I stopped thinking about how hard it was to pay my bills; I started thanking God that he has always provided for me!
I still have hard days; however, I have hope! I have hope that one day my children will be an active part of my life again. I have hope that God will see me through anything and everything that comes my way! God never promised that our life here on earth would only be filled with sunshine and roses; however, He does promise that He will never leave us or forsake us.
I thank God for the family and friends that I have in my life! God knows exactly what I need before I know what I need and He orchestrates my life so much better than I ever could!!
I want to encourage every person reading this blog to realize YOU are not alone!! God is always with you and He has placed people in your life for such a time as this!! Reach out and grab hold of God’s grace and always remember, “YOU are NOT alone!!”
